Friday, February 3, 2012

The Last Goodbye

          Hello February! I don’t know why but this is one of my favorite months. Whenever I think of February, I imagine reds and pinks and whites, lovely flowers on the sides of Parisian cobblestone streets, velvet dresses with hearts cut out of the back, red lipstick, heart-shaped sunglasses, the book Lolita, and fake eyelashes. 
          Lately, I find myself terribly distracted. And strangely, I don’t care. I am too happy to care. Concentrating on anything, especially school, is nearly impossible. I forget to eat (not even intentionally either), to sleep, and I can barely engage in reality. I find my mind wandering off into my whimsical illusions and not even feeling guilty about it. I’ve realized that torturing myself with school and responsibility isn’t beneficial to my health. While it’s important, it’s not worth sacrificing my happiness in order to get perfect grades. Perfection is unattainable, I learned that in recovery. My standards for myself have lowered just because I’ve realized that I can be content without being in control of everything.
          Finals week was oddly stress-free. I got out of school early and I would just spend the entire time going on lovely adventures with friends. They would consist of writing, drawing, drinking Diet Coke, buying miscellaneous treasures like strawberry scented candles and heart shaped lollipops, listening to CocoRosie on vinyl, going to coffee shops, thrift store shopping in Long Beach, walking everywhere, going on night hikes, and watching lovely movies. I don’t want this to end.
          These are pictures I took with my digital camera. Although I prefer film, I'm really happy with how these came out. This is the lovely Margo, who is an incredible model. 

11 comments:

M. said...

I'm really happy for you, seems that you live a really happy life right now :)
and pictures are great as always :)

AVY said...

Lovely romantic feeling to those.


/ Avy
http://MyMotherFuckedMickJagger.blogspot.com





Sia Jane said...

I love the use of light <3
Beautiful model also <3

And EAT!!! ;)
And I agree... I am free in that way and get lost in my mind and creativity.
And as with you, I allow myself that <3

tasha faye said...

i wish i had a model like Margo to photograph and i wish i had an imagination like yours. <3 your days sound so wonderful and lovely. i hope you'll continue to be happy for a long, long time, love! xxx

Catharine and Nikki said...

I love you Cassidy. This week has been so wonderful, especially that day at Ruby's. I simply adore February.

Kailey said...

I absolutely love Valentine's Day myself ^^ Meanwhile, I cannot get over how truly gorgeous these pictures are - thank you so much for sharing! Maro is lovely ^^

Alice said...

Gorgeous - you are just as talented with a digital camera as with film. Your style definitely still shines through in these photos, they're beautiful.

DIANA DYE said...

Awesome! Photos! You always have wonderful romantic, mysterious unique photos. Its always a thrill visiting your little place in the internet _ keep up the good work!♥

Louderthandrums said...

Just beautiful.:)

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Whaouuu! The photos are awersome! ♥